Rare occasions where I feel like posting some inner thoughts of mine
well, this time around is about the topic, as stated above.
Lately, there are a few articles circulating on my fb newsfeed
is regarding a lady, in her 20s
which suddenly discovered she has some incurable cancer or what
and the 6 years long relationship boyfriend decided to marry her
even though she has 2 months left to live.
of course, it was a happy wedding.
Funny enough, i actually question myself on this
If one day I have some stage 4 cancer / incurable spreadable transmittable scary disease(s)
will my boyfriend marry me just because they say
"both of you love each other too much?"
oh well, just in case
if you are thinking that I might be one of those
princess / annoying gf that wants a
YES OF COURSE I WILL MARRY YOU reply from my boyfriend
its more like
"will I let him do that even if he wants / insists to"
In my opinion,
if I only have a few months to survive
of course I wish to have my family members / friends / boyfie around me
(well except if I have some air-borne transmittable disease then, maybe not too near to me)
but even so, I wished they will wear mask / protective attire and at least visit me
as much as I want to have a loving husband in the future
I think I will say no.
why tie someone's future when you can't have the future with him?
well, be with me as a boyfriend and see me die peacefully
and then, you can lead your new life, hopefully
keep some memories of me in your heart
but don't let me interfere with your future gf / wife / family
it's not worth it.
cuz i will be one of those dead meat decaying in a coffin
and I won't come back to you anymore.
(even though I want too, badly i guess)
- just some thoughts -
(maturity checked. LOL)